Indulgences (Sun. 1.14)
Self-Care is like, a thing in 2018.
At the end of last year and into this year, I decided to duck out of my social life and just chill with me. I was operating from a very strained and unfocused place that required my being more "selfish" in the name of self-care. And I say this with no shame at all. It became crucial that I just stay home and figure out what makes me feel rejuvenated, because somehow, in my 27 years, I never figured that out.
Definitely disappointed a few people who wanted my time. Flaked on a lot of dates (still doing it, actually). But I needed this before I ran myself into the ground. I can't pay other people attention until I've paid attention to myself.
One of the hardest things to believe is that you come first. Saying that my well being comes before everyone in my life can sometimes sound awful. But tough shit, I've ignored myself for too long. I do come first. And I'm learning to balance that with my obligations to other people.
So here's what I've been doing for me:
Binge watching The Crown (both seasons!) with my mom. I really admire Claire Foy's talent in her portrayal as QEII. And I love how much storytelling the writers fit into just 10 episodes a season.
Taking Free + Native manifestation courses. These are changing my life!
Enjoying my new wake up light. Also a life-changer in that it's allowed me to move my lamp to a light-neglected part of my room, allowing for way better ambience that comforts me.
Reading Destroyer No. 1 for Frankenread 2018, a brilliant, city-wide (in Santa Ana), year-long reading initiative, helmed by Makara Center for the Arts in celebration of the 200th anniversary of Mary Shelly's Frankenstein.
Going down the research rabbit hole with ~sound healing~.
Listening to this new self-care podcast.
I've also been exploring an after-work self-care ritual that I'll share soon!